
I am not sure whether to say that I have avoided writing, that I have had the proverbial writer's block, or that I just haven't wanted to talk about where I've been physically, emotionally, and mentally in the past two months plus.
In a sense, I have felt lost. Instead of life coming at me fast, I have gone AT life fast. But, why?
Beginning with 'most recently' and working backwards in this series of what I would like to call simply 'Looking Back,' I hope that maybe I can understand, too, why everything sometimes comes all at once...and it is not always bad or good things, just things. It is a start, nonetheless, and yet even as I begin...I struggle... because it
is truly challenging to explain this method of head first- 150mph-
sprintastic life for the last few months...and the sometimes very necessary breaks.
So here we go: This present week, I took off from... everything - MBA classes are on a break, coaching has ended, and I took the week off from my job (well, it worked out nicely because I am moving from part-time to full-time) - for an 'in-house vacation. A WHOLE WEEK with nowhere to be, nothing to be done, and no particular time to wake up. It has been none other than - refreshing.
But let's move back a little further. Just a week and a half ago, I was in Grand Rapids, Michigan for my first national race - the USA 25k/Fifth Third River Bank Run. Earlier this spring, I had found out the
USATF had a program to help develop elite athletes across the country and provides funding for distance runners to compete at the national level. I had an extremely pleasant surprise one afternoon when an email from the
USATF Women's Distance Director arrived saying that I had been selected as one of those to go and compete!
At first, I sat back with this inexplicable electric pulse running through my body - I was in awe, amazed, and incredibly excited. I had to read the email again and again and again to make sure that there wasn't some mistake ... and then I JUMPED....up from my office chair, ran into the hall, and JUMPED again. Oh, the feeling!! Somewhere between the moment when a jet first lifts off the ground and the first bite of a really rich, glorious chocolate dessert was the feeling...ah.
It was real. Then, holy cow, I realized I needed a plane ticket, a day off, and to get my mind in order. The farthest distance I had raced was a half-marathon...could I up it safely to 2.4 miles more? And could I
race that distance? ...well, I really had no idea. Wow, let's go. Let's have fun, let's
experience! But it would be no easy task to get to to May 8, 2010. Nope.
The spring has been riddled with some major challenges including some big UPS and steep DOWNS. The week of the race was a large hurdle in itself; there was a case study due on Monday, a final Quantitative Methods II exam also on Monday, a track meet to coach on Tuesday, a final Economics exam on Wednesday, a meeting to discuss a full-time position on Thursday, and a flight on early Friday morning to top it off. Yes, just surviving the weekdays would be challenging! And so when I got on the plane Friday morning, I took a deep --- deep breath. I was off to Michigan to compete along side professional distance runners and run in my first national road race championship!!! ...And I was going to enjoy the peaceful, quiet hours on the plane ride there,... fully.
....And then the left engine of the plane wouldn't start.
(to be continued)